omg...I totally forgot about livejournal. For some reason I remembered it today. And I noticed that I started this journal in 2000!! I can't believe it's been eight years. Almost 9! Wow, how life has changed. Maybe I'll start writing in this again. I guess its something to do when I get sick of myspace and facebook lol.

So I am watching the Wings game right now. We are winning 4-2. Sweeeeeeeet!

Well I did make a new journal, but I decided that I hate it and I deleted it haha. So this is still my journal. I think I'm going to make a comeback of the livejournal. I'm about to do a huge friends cut, so as usual this journal will be friends only. :D

My new journal name is andreamarie9807.

I'm leaving this journal and starting a new one for friends only.

So if you haven't heard the news...

Eric and I are getting married next year on September 8th, 2007.

I got my pretty princess ring today, and we also told my parents. And everyone is real excited for us! I'm so happy. Me and Eric both are.

I haven't updated in like a year. I think I forgot how to type lol. Right now I'm at my mom's house. I came over for dinner. Eric is at work, I'm lonely! I feel ugly. I want a hair cut. And I need to lose weight. I think I'm going to buy rollerblades and go rollerblading at Metro Beach soon. I need to stop being fat again. I hate it. I'm just constantly either at school or work six days out of the week, 8 hours a day. So when I actually come home, I'm dead. And I just eat whatever's around and pass out. Yesterday I worked for 10 hours. But my paychecks are good, so I don't really mind. Except for when I look in the mirror and realize I stopped caring about what I look like for too long and I look like crap. Help!

There has been something in my eye for like 15 minutes now and its driving my crazy.

I got my grades back. 3 A's and a crappy B. B?? What? Oh well. I'm out of school for two weeks, and then I go back for summer classes. But I will be graduating at this time next year!!

Well I think I wanna go get my eyebrows done. But I don't really wanna go by myself. I really really wanna get my hair done. But I don't know what to do with it. My hair sucks.

I guess I'm gonna get going back to my apt. Someone come visit me and eric tonight at our apt. That sounds fun. I like visitors :D Call me 747-3786

So its been forever since I updated last.

Me and Eric are moving into The Harbours on Monday. Our own little apartment :D I'm so excited! Me and my lovey :D

School is almost over. My job is going good. Life is good. I am happy.

So I worked my first 8 hour day today at the hospital. Felt great working 8 hours and making $12/hr. These past few days have been crazy. Work/School/Homework...and oh yea everything else. All I wanna do right now is get completely wasted. But I don't wanna drink by myself and I have no one to drink with me. So sad. Well I guess I'll sit here. And stare at the walls. I might be going crazy. I'm not sure. I hurt someone really close to me last night, and I don't know know if I can take it. I feel so guilty. But I can't feel guilty. I just don't want to think about it. For real. Please, someone come over and drink some beer with me. Is it okay to feel sad about what I did? Not that I made the wrong choice, just that its really sad. Everything will be better. I made the choice that was right for me.

Well I have good news. I quit CVS today. I got an internship making $12/hr at Mt. Clemens General Hospital in the medical records department through my HIT program at school. I can't believe I actually got the job. I was so nervous at my interview and there was a lot of other people trying to get the job from my class. I'm so excited. Dale was so mad when I called and quit CVS today. But whatever. He's gay. Right now I'm hanging with melissa at her house. And I'm excited that I don't have to go to work today. Hahaha. K bye.

1) Write down 7 things that piss you off (in no certain order).
2) Tag 7 people.
3) Write 7 things that make you happy too.

Things that piss me off:
1. My job.
2. Waking up early.
3. Being fat.
4. Being cold.
5. Mismatched socks.
6. Homework.
7. Being broke.

I tag...
1. Jen
2. Melissa
3. Kat
4. Jaime
5. Dan
6. Lauren
7. Jenn S

Make me happy:
1. Sleeping in.
2. Food.
3. Driving in my car.
4. Days off of work.
5. Spending the weekends with Jen.
6. GameCube.
7. Pay day.

1) where did you graduate from and what year?
L'Anse Creuse North, 2003

2) did you have school pride?
None.

3) was your prom a night to remember?
Oh yea, I loved having no friends, not being invited to parties and leaving early and crying because I was a loser.

4) do you own all 4 yearbooks?
yes

5) what was the worst trouble you ever got into?
Hmm...probably when I wrote this letter that I wished that Celeste would die and burn in hell after she broke into my house. Haha, yea I got called down to the office for that one. Pretty gay. Except I didn't even get in trouble.

6) what kind of people did you hang out with?
I think I had different friends for every year. But the only friend that I had for all four years was Pauline!

7) What was your ..1 choice to go to college?
Macomb haha

8) what radio station did you jam out to in high school?
101.1


9) were you involved in any organizations or clubs?
Band. I think I was in Astronomy club for like a minute too hah.


10) what were your favorite classes in high school?
Chemistry

11) who were your biggest crushes in high school?
Eric <33


12) would you say you've changed a lot since high school?
Yep, I would say so.

13) What do you miss most about high school?
Seeing Pauline everyday. Band.

14) your worst memory of HS?
Me and Eric breaking up in 10th grade. And then his friends making fun of me and making me cry everyday. Oh yea, and not having any friends for the end of senior year.

15) Did you have a car?
Black '94 Grand Prix

16) what were your school colors?
black 'n' gold

17) who was your fav. teacher?
Ms. Strozewski and Mr Miles

18) did you own a cell phone in highschool?
Yea

19) did you leave campus for lunch?
Mostly

20) if so, where was your favorite place to go eat?
Tim Horton's

21) were you late to class?
Nope.

22) did you ever have to stay for saturday school ?
What's that?

23) did you ever ditch?
Haha, yep.

24) when it comes time for the reunion will you be there?
Doubt it.

25) do you wish you were still in high school?
No way.


Wow, I just realized that High School was dumb.

What would you think if I sang out of tune
Would you stand up and walk out on me
Lend me your ears and I'll sing you a song
And I'll try not o sing out of key

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

What do I do when my love is away
Does it worry you to be alone?
How do I feel by the end of the day
Are you sad because you're on your own

No, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody
I need somebody to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love

Would you believe in a love at first sight
Yes, I'm certain that it happens all the time
What do you see when you turn out the light
I can't tell you but I know it's mine

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends

Do you need anybody
I just need someone to love
Could it be anybody
I want somebody to love

Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
Yes I get by with a little help from my friends
With a little help from my friends

i have to go home in like 3 mins. i dont wanna. I dont even wannna live. I thnkt this is a cry for help. help me. i might go home snd jump out my window. oh well.

I really really miss b eing skinny. I gained loike 20 lbs back. I think I wil be anorexic from now on. I can't stand looking at my pictures from like 5 months ago whebn I was 124 lbs. Now I dont even know what i'M AT but i know that its not 124. Its more like 140 or 145. Yea i'm depressed. Oh well I will do something about it. i'mk sick gto myu stomachj thining about how much wieight ive gained. I used to wear size 5 pants and now I wear size 11. I hate myself. For real. I really do. I dont know what stoppihng me from just ending it all and killing myself. I dont feel pretty. I dont feel anything. i feel so sad. I just sit around my house making and eating food. I'm killing myself slowly with food. Wow i'm so drujnk right now. I have class in 6 hrs. I dont even care. At least being drunk makes me forget how fat I really am. I don't feel pertty anymore. By the way I dyied my hair black. And Ive been wearing all black. and I just bought black nail polish. I'm going back to my old ways and I dont know why. Why am I alive?? I dont have a reason. This is proabably just a druken think but I dotn care. i gotta go bye

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [å2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

I hate having to make hard decisions. Had a crazy night tonight. Well actually the past 2 nights have been crazy. I think I'm just crazy. A crazy girl that doesn't know what she wants. I have been up all night. I just finished my homework for class today. I have to leave for school in an hour and 15 minutes. I hope class is short. I want to come home and go to bed. I need to think. About what I want. And what really makes me happy. I feel confused, but at the same time I feel alright. I'm being honest with myself, and everyone around me. Tonight I told a couple people the truth about things, and I feel better about that. But now I really have to choose what to do. And I don't even know what I'm going to do. I just don't want to have regrets and always wonder, what if? That is the worst feeling in the world to think.

Me and Melissa are both just crazy girls. We had an adventure tonight. Some good, mostly bad. I dunno. We'll see what happens.

HIii. I'm hanging out with eric, jaime, zach and eddie. Wow, I'm pretty drunk, it took me forever to type that. I worked midnites all fricken weekend. I got written up. I got in lots of trouble. But oh well. I got written up because my drawer was 20 dollars short. But I ddidnt steal anything. I don't know what happened. I'm talkin to lauren!! I can't wait, she said shes gonna come over. We're listening to Outkast. I'm so happy. Lauren is coming over in a half hour. Yayyy!! I haven't seen her since last summer. I miss when we did that dance thing in jazz band, and the TOUR DE FRANCE. That was the greatest.

"Jaime has a boner"

Today is my first day off of work in 5 days after working four 8 hour midnight shifts in a row, and then coming back 9 hrs later on the same day for truck night. Whew. But at least I have today and tomorrow off! I'm so excited. Except working midnights really screwed up my sleeping pattern and I've been up almost all night. I could not sleep at all. I talked to Eric on the phone til about 5:30 am, then I went out to get gas and get an iced cappucino from Tim Hortons. Then I came home and started some laundry and started cleaning my room. Today is great already. I'm in the best mood for some reason. Today I'm going tanning with Melissa and then later hanging out with Eric. We're drinking tonight. I seriously can't wait. I didn't even have a weekend, so this is it. Then on Friday me and Eric are going to Toronto for the weekend!! I can't wait for that either. Well I guess I should get back to cleaning.

Well my New Years was fun. Drank a little. Well, a lot actually haha. Had fun. :D Happy New Year everyone!

Woke up this morning, and felt soo nausous. I thought I was going to puke. I was so hungover, but it was worth it haha. Had a good dinner that eric's mom cooked us today. Then me and Eric went to gibralter and hung out at my house for awhile. After that we just walked around Meijer and I got a new wallet. Oh yea and some Robitussin. I am so sick for some reason. And its wierd because I never get sick. I just have a bad cold. I've been sneezing and coughing all day. And I have a really runny nose.

I don't have to work tomorrow, yesss!! I don't know what I'm gonna do though. Probably go tanning :D And I want to go shopping at the mall. Someone come with me!! Pleeeease??